Birthday week

    My birthday has always been a fun day for me even if I wasn't able to celebrate it the day of, I was always able to do something the following weekend. This year was a little bit different and I actually had to spend my birthday studying for an exam that I had the next day. Now you're probably wondering, well why couldn't I celebrate the following weekend? I had to spend my weekend studying for finals and attending my brother's graduation. My brother also attends Purdue and he would have graduated this past summer but he needed one more credit to graduate. Attending his graduation made me think about college and at this point, I can't even begin to think about graduating. It seems as though I will be in school forever and I have such a long way to go but I know that when my last year is here, I will be thinking about this moment. I am so worried that I won't do well and that this will all be for nothing if I am not good at my job. I shouldn't be worrying about those things right now but it's very easy to doubt myself. I really need to get into the habit of thinking about all of my accomplishments instead of dwelling on the bad. For example, I could be happy that my finals will be over soon and I will have a nice break waiting for me instead of complaining about how hard finals will be. 

Gift Giving

    Is there an art to gift-giving? Why does gift-giving have to be so hard? I love to get my friend's gifts and feel accomplished knowing that I just got them something that they have been wanting for a while or something that they would totally love. While I do enjoy giving gifts, I still have a really hard time getting them. I easily find gifts for my best friend because I know her just as well as she knows herself and I know that she would love any gift that I get her. On the other hand, I have a friend who I have known since kindergarten and I still have no clue what to get her. Every single year I think for hours about what I could possibly get her and I'm sure that she would appreciate most of it, I know that some of the things I've gotten her have never actually been used.  That thought-out gift that I once spent way too much time deciding on is now laying in her closet somewhere or collecting dust. I know that we all have that one person in our lives who is just so hard to get gifts for and it always makes me feel bad because I appreciate this person and would like to show them that but yet I cannot make up my mind.