Fall Break

    My fall break was not very successful. Most people would say that it was and would have no idea as to why I feel this way. Before fall break started, I told myself that I was going to relax but I was also going to try and be productive. I was going to finish my work, study for upcoming exams, but also spend time with my boyfriend and just simply find time to do absolutely nothing. Instead I found that on Friday and Saturday, I completed my work and for the rest of my break I did nothing. I did manage to spend time with my boyfriend and I also spent a lot of time with my parents. All throughout this break, I had the constant reminder in the back of my mind that I needed to at some point force myself to study. Was I successful? No. Sadly, I spent way too much time catching up on shows that I haven't been able to watch and I started to watch Squid Game. 

I began to watch the show just to see what all of the hype was about. I soon found myself wanting to go on to the next episode and this cycle continued. My boyfriend and I would facetime and watch the show together instead of doing our work. I felt really guilty about not studying and not being proactive. I feel that college breaks are not actual breaks. Sure you don't have to go to class and you aren't being assigned work or anything but you still have to think about any exams coming up or even a quiz. When you were in elementary school, middle school, and even high school, any sort of break was a great break because you genuinely didn't have to worry about upcoming exams or things that you need to study for. You got to spend your time doing nothing or being with friends the whole time and there was no guilt. I wish that I could go back in time and go back to the days when I had no responsibilities and my biggest worry was that I had to do chores or little things on my mind like missing my friends.