Studying

    I recently realized that I have found myself learning more and more things about myself. One of the things that I realized was that I hate studying. All through high school I don't think that I ever truly went home and studied for an upcoming test. I always thought that my classes were easy and the material was never too hard. I could easily look over the material the day of the test and I knew what I was doing (most of the time). I think something that really influenced this was the fact that I had these classes everyday and after reviewing the material for so long, I was confident enough not to study. Now that I am in college, one of the biggest transitions so far has been studying. Of course I decided to become a nurse so now I realize that I have so much to remember. The materials are not something that you can look at for 30 minutes before taking the exam and seamlessly remember. I have been trying to find new ways to study but I found that making flashcards is probably my favorite way to do so. 

I don't hate the act of studying but I never have the motivation. I have a really hard time trying to convince myself that I need to get up and study. I often find myself getting anxious just thinking about all of the material that I need to start remembering and I freak myself out just thinking about how I'll ever fit all of this into my brain. Once I have actually motivated myself to study, I just love the feeling of knowing that I have actually remembered all of it. There is this feeling that I get once I have mastered the material, I get this satisfaction of knowing that I successfully did something right. It might sound weird but its the only part that I actually enjoy about studying.